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:D amber rust is a nice name. notice my blog URLS never make sense! I will miss xanga ):

this is probably my LAST proper post here ):
I'll be shifting back to blogger, and I found nice green skin!
I'm starting to find green sexy xD

charis'd be so happy.

let's talk for the final time now.
I guess today I'm not as emo as usual BUT now I get irritated damn easily so I think there's some kind of change in me. o.o
anyway, today was kind of a slack day. well RS was fine . with the er, research and stuff! then we had chem where we went to pick our crystals up! yayness. cos my crystals are super duper truper big. quite difficult to get big crystals like mine ;D erm, and where to go was. ahhhhhhhhh. I told my mum the anecdote. bleah. haha.
chinese, slack. last lesson with wls, so yeah. we had open book ting xie! xD tt's quite funny cos we shouldn't call it tingxie -.- and after tt wls asked us to write our names in cl, then he would edit it for all of us. (:

maths was slack too! mrs chia was sick and she looked really pale ): we had some free time, so chel and I helped lynn and vanessa with the organisation of the patchwork. poor chairs ._. we had to write motivational letters to them to cheer them up! haha hope y'all are feeling better ;D

lit! THE BEST cos pontang read my poem out to the class and it was a lovely funny poem. miss picca loved it so much she went to copy it and asked me where I got it from xD btw I'm gloating HAHA. deborahhh you better love the poem la. haha. POEM EXCHANGE IS <3 LA!

after school, helped mr lau with trina / tingwei to do up the chemistry heading ._.
tingwei's T is nice. so fat and chubby. LOL.

then french. we watched a movie! cos monsieur needed to finish marking the papers. shouldn't have brought the dictionary -.- make me carry all the way there only to like, have no lesson. BUT THE MOVIE ROCK OKAY.

we read the el subs, and it was sth about YAMAKASI or YAKAMASI or sth like tt. 7 guys who jump from and climb up buildings. very action-packed ;D yeah so french was slack too. and I got 4.0 for french just by 1/2 mark o.o BUT CHERYL IS DARN SMART LA. get so high -.- 77.5 / 90 is UHH so high my dear. grats anyway.

basically the whole day was like tt lar.

TMR IS OPEN HOUSE!

BONNES VANCANCES!

ahah can't wait for OH! will be mending 3 booths. aesthethics, angklung and chem. then we will be performing too. hopefully sec1s are excused lar. had to sms all the sec1s on tmr's stuff -.- I went bonkers can. lol. hve to be in school by 8. and my last shift ends at 3:30. THIS IS LONGER THAN A USUAL SCHOOL DAY LAR. wth wth wth wth wth !

but I'm still exhilarated anyway ~

haha. anw, watch out for my new blog okay! (:
I really love the skin and DANCE INSIDE! yayness.

okayyyyyyyyyy bye bye.

once again, BONNES VANCANCES! ( it means good holidays :D)

I wonder why I even care to put my arms around you to comfort you,
When you don't even apppreciate what I do.
Nothing I do is the right thing to you.

When I compliment you, you get pissed off. Sorry.
When I tell you to be positive even when something bad happens, you get pissed off. Sorry. As if I'm cursing you.

I don't even know why I bother to be hurt by you. If you didn't know, you did hurt me. And you probably didn't know. So I'm telling you that I was hurt by you. I wished I never ever had to know you. Because you make me feel as though I am in the wrong, I am hopeless and helpless, stupid, sinful, inferior and you made me waste so many hours being angry with you. Why should I get angry with people not worth being angry with?

Did you know, that you really "made" my day at the start of the day? You made me feel hurt and cheated for the 12 hours I was outside school. And it's still concurrent. That freaking feeling doesn't ever go off. Don't you know? I hope you're just my nightmare. A nightmare doesn't exist.

OKAY. So off with being emo...
I read seeyoon's emo poem and it was really emo -.- what about opening the doors of your heart? Lol.
and.. wls is retiring ): Miss the slack lessons. And all the digressing stuff. :\

didn't blog yst cos the stupid internet was down but yea I will briefly say what happened :D
vanessa, yihui and I went to far east to buy bbt and chickennnnnnn. ate and talk and laughed and yihui realised tt there was a longjohn silver at far east. and she had gone to j8 with grace to eat at ljs. LOL.

after tt vanessa and I left to go vanessa's house and yh went home. then lynn and rachel joined us after their interviews and stuff. vanessa's house is o.o big. there's a pool which is just a few cm away from the living room, blocked by a grill. we stuck our legs through the grill into the pool! then I got chou jin. LOL.

yeah so we stayed there till 8, had pizza for dinner, bounced on clifford-the-big-red-dog, laughed like hell. and ahha. did 1/100 of our math PT. xD and there were only 4 of us in the house! 4 girls aloneeee (:

ok then today. the ._. day. most suay, the suayest, most daomei, damn daomei day.
D&T.
mr oh didn't complete my kit for me.
I completed it in a rush and in the end my sound sensor didn't work.. wth wth can. thx to xiaoting and deblim who stayed to help.
and then I packed it in with the batteries -.-
ms tong called me blur.
and rachel added on to say that blur is the word. yeah thanks a lot la. not at that moment. who wants to joke when she's pissed.
then, I realised I had placed my box in the wrong section. I should have placed it with the spoilt ones. so after recess I went back and told the tcher. she said mr oh had gone back so my kit couldn't be repaired.

freakkkkkkkkkkkkk.

thx to debtang and deblim who shared food with me. (: pissed ppl neeed food.
and sry to yihui and gracelim for forever telling you I'm pissed. but it's true la. I'm forever pissed with someone.

Sunday, Uncle A.C. talked about omnipotence and stuff. and tt God would give us trials after trials and then deliver us from them. I think that's how I almost got thru my day. I waited for the deliverance. It probably hasn't come yet, but I'm still waiting. And I screwed my playing at YL, but it's the service that counts so. boolshart. okay? I can't be bothered anymore.

after assembly, I was in class with debtang, deblim, yuming, joanne, tingwei and mary. we played loads of games and then there was this part tt was damn funny.

ME to DEBLIM about DEBTANG: "She's your husband ah?"
DEBLIM to ME about DEBTANG: "No, he's my sister."

HAHAHA. you'd probably don't get it, but you seeeee. she = husband, he = sister. xD then we were doing indian dance in the class after watching errr 110? 111? 's RBD concert and their magnificent performance. haha. we also had the obstacle game and loads of hide-n-seek. IT WAS LIKE. THE PLAYROOM. ;D we laughed a lot, and danced with mary's crazy guitar scale. HAHA. debtang and deblim were darn funny lar. hahaha. I think tt was 1/2 of my deliverance.

french kindof dry today, and monsieur let us off at 7:10PM today. like. we're supposed to end at  6:30. because one of the guy lost his textbook and monsieur refused to let us go unless they found the book.
they didn't find the book.
and I was the last to be bag-checked.

KP LA THE BOYS! tsk. they actually hid the book, and after break the book was gone can? preposterous! ridiculous! :D

pissed ok. I've got like. THEORY HW, CL BOOKMARK, DEBTANG'S POEM ._. for poem exchange, french exercise, math PT, lit project, results collection on 30MAY, open house this sat, D&T during the hols, a.e. prac/performances during the hols, and I STILL HAVE TO LIVE MY LIFE THE WAY I SHOULD.

like go swimming, beach, shopping and all the girlygirly stuff.

I feel that rgs is an assylum. you should have seen me indian dance just now.

btw, we were playing the see-who-doesn't-laugh-first game and deblim and I were humming songs. then deblim hummed until so funny then I was trying to suppress my laughter but failed so I burst out laughing, as well as letting out alll my saliva onto deblim's pretty pretty face. I told her my saliva can clear pimples xD

and I also played some I'm-watching-you thing with debtang when she was outside the class and I was inside. really funny. that was probably the best part of today apart from all the screwed up sessions and that hollow feeling in my stomach. I feel dumb now.

and who cares about geographyyyyyyyyyyyy! my SPA sucked laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. 15/20 while vanessa got 20/20 lynn got 19/20 and rachel got 17/20.

WOW, I AM SO SMART.

okayyyyyyy. gtg bathe now and do my shu qian..

byebye.

" there is no day on this earth in my life that is good."

SOUNDS SO RIGHT YEAH? OKAY. I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOO! _________  ._.
first, I screwed philo PT and geog (map) PT/whatever. so what if I got 22/22 for that miserable MYA when I'm screwing up every other paper? what's the use la. wthhhhh! ):
secondly, I just realised that I'm now surrounded by 3 SLs, 1 term 2 SL and 2 term 3 SL nominees. freaaaaaaaaaaak. make me feel terribly out! haha yeah justin you should know what that means right! wah lao. I'm like. ahhh. toot.

sooooo. I suck at netball shooting, my 3 good friends are all guai kias. talking about me being a guai kia. zzz. got an A for philo la. HELLO! it's not A,B,C grades. it's E, P, A, L. L being the lowest, E being the best. so as you can see, I got the second lowest grade, which is also the lowest in my philo class ._. vanesssssaaaaa gad la you! get E right! excellent la! tsk tsk. you ppl never understand how I feel you knowww. haiyo. said that 18.5/24 for geog (map) PT/whatever is good when rachel got 21 and vanessa got 19.5! T.T so, it brings this down to...

1) my good friends are smart
2) my good friends are guai kias T.T

it's nothing! to do with jealousy but. you simply feel inferior? INFERIOR'S THE WORD. oh crap. I'm NOT! gonna use  contractions for as long as I live if not miss picca will scold again. blurdy el/lit SAs. I told her I'm average. She told me I'm slightly above average. by 1 or 2 marks only. I guess. well. ): charis! you gad la! did you know miss picca showcased your Lit SA to us! you pretty pretty smart smart smart englishy woman. like 22/22 for geog is a  big thing. speak for yourself my dear! :X

I think it's been a pretty bad day. all except the fact that.. ahhahahaha. lemme tell you the story! (:
today was changing-seats time! during CLE block. mr lau brought the ice cream sticks which we all wrote our names on earlier this year during orientation... :D so what we were supposed to do was pick a random i-c-s and then that person would be the "successor" to our seat. (:
rachel got sent to kinnari's seat.
so I was like. AH. shet!
then I got sent to claire's seat. SO WE'RE SITTING TOGETHER AGAIN! xDxD mr lau said we're NOT supposed to be sitting together AGAIN! but well as luck/fate/God would have it, we are sitting together again. then it was lynn's turn. we told everyone NOT! to pick the blue i-c-s which none of them did. then joey was the last person, so she took lynn's. and lynn's STILL! sitting in front of rachel and me! except that we're on the other end of the class now. ahhahaha. I think mr lau was pissed cos we're all sitting together again. because the point is, we're NOT! supposed to be sitting together again. and vanessa's behind rachel and me! (: she's waiting to swop with yuenwan so she'll be nxt to meeeeeeeee.
sad thing is. there's no window to look at as a mirror to make your hair nice nice.

btw, yihui and grace are sitting together too! (: grace is behind yh and she'd better thank me cos I picked her STICK! and lynn picked yh's STICK! haha. bff are supposed to be bff [:

OHNO. I RETYPED ANOTHER POST NOW THIS POST IS WORKING. -.- so you can now see the diff between the first and the second. (:

byeeee

 "there is no day on this earth in my life that is good."

SOUNDS SO RIGHT YEAH? OK. I AM VERY VERY VERY ______ ._.
considerably that my whole post just got stuck on the screen and it happened to be very long so I have to re-type it out. ):
first, I screwed geog and philo PT. I don't care if I got 22/22 for geog. so what! since I'm screwing every other paper. T.T
second, my 3 good friends are all guai kias now. official ones! 1 Term 2 SL, 2 Term 3 SL nominees. like freakkkkkkk! I feel terribly out! hahahah justin you know what I mean right.

philo PT, I got an A. Vanessa got a E, and A happens to be the second lowest grade you can get and also the lowest in the whole philo class. and E is apparently the HIGHEST grade you can get.

geog. rachel and vanessa were consoling me until I realised they got so high -.-

WAH LA! so now lynn. vanessa and rachel are all the guai kias. it's not about jealousy, but I just feel really inferior to them la! ): it's like they're high achievers while I'm what. low achiever? I DONT LIKE MY SURNAME AT ALL! I should have been a HIGH. not a LOW :X
oyeah. can't use stupid contractions anymore! if not my essays will suffer like during the MYAs. I told miss picca I'm average. She told me I'm slightly above average. and said to continue in el and lit. oh no. sorry, I can't. I'm not up to par to do whatsoever. full stop. period, the end. btw charis, she "promoted" your work again. well done charis. (:

It was pretty much of a bad day for me today. it has always been bad days now. I think I really have to pick myself up and start running! now it seems like I'm some er, sand particle in the sea that's saltation or sth. the currents pick me up and drop me again. and crap. it happens to be a cycle.

wow, didn't expect MY life to become a terrible cycle. oh yeah. who said life is fair? :\

so anyway, the probable only good thing that happened was. that. after changing seats today I'm still sitting on the Rachel's right and behind lynn. which is good. only thing is that we've moved from the east to the west! I think mr lau was kindof shocked, cos we're actually supposed to pick out ice-cream-sticks with our names written on it during orientation and then the person will be the "successor" to your seat. lynn was damn tyco! cos we told everybody not to take the blue stick xD which apparently is hers la. and we also happen to be sitting and the second row and mr lau started the line from the back so we're one of the last fews and there are lesser choices left :D
vanessa is sitting behind us also, and I think she wants to xchange sits with yuen wan so she can sit next to me!  bwahahahha. then bubble tea and the nameless 3 girl gang will be united!!!!!!!! :D

then come to think of it, I'm still sad that...ah. it's hard to keep up in such a competitive school.
they make it to seem NOT competitive, but it still seems to be going around. I try not to get upset with all my results and stuff but try to understand that if you're the dumbest of your circle of friends, you really, really, really, feel dumb. like duh. -.- you feel inferior! inferior's the word. life is kindof crappy right! z.z.z. I get pissed with a lot of ppl sometimes. I think it's meee. talking about Delayed P. D. or sth? yeah. I think it's PMS. that disgusting thingy called PMS. maybe not the M but. it's SS. Secondary Stress. nooo. SSS. secondary school stress. yeah. SSS! all the really dumb stuff you'd get pissed at and the next day you're smiling, finding yourself DUMB! for being pissed the previous day. I wished we could all go back to primary school innocent and naive... WHOOPS. no eclipsis! sorry miss picca.

I don't like being upset! but I think SLAMMING THE PIANO and BANGING YOUR ANGKLUNG and wanting to whack averill's head in photoshoot and anyhow shoot during p.e. netball is DE-STRESSING. which is bravo!

blurdy. I gtg bathe lar. stinky persons are always pissed you realise.
byebye,
...
-no eclipsis, sry-